Thursday, July 12, 2007

One Year On...

Wow... as I am typing this, I feel extremely surreal... It has been a whole year since I started this job... and the truth is, I feel like I've been doing this for longer than one year... the things that I have learnt, have been so inspiring, heart-breaking but all in all, opened my eyes and forced me to look at reality while holding on to my idealistic beliefs, faith and staying true to myself..

In this one year, I have learnt to let down my guard, put my guard up, mind my own business, have faith, learn to trust and yet learnt that some ppl are just assholes.. I have also learnt that I am extremely fortunate and lucky... I have wonderful and fantabulous friends who have helped me throughout the journey, and also close collegues who have stayed by my side even though I had been a brat at times... So thankful.. so so so thankful! :)

And so tommorrow is a new day, with new challenges (not problems), new excitements and new opportunities...

Alhamdulilah, I still see the positives in this world! :)

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Rainy Wed

I reali feel that I am not taking good care of myself... very poor self-care I must say and I am tempted ever so often to be an ostrich... and I do feel that it shows in my work. Even my AM was asking me how I was doing a report as she felt that I have written better reports before.. Wic is true because I was damn tired doing it and I just wanted it to be done and over with...

Suddenly there is just so so much to do... It's crazy... But I really must learn how to deal with it because I do feel I am coming to full load... if not now super super soon... and at the end of the day, must remember that it is all for the best interest of the children!!!

And how do I know that I am getting too tired? I get very irritated with my clients and have caught myself yelling at them and being unprofessional at times. I also get very short tempered, both at work and also with my clients.. and I got to catch myself and stop myself...

I need to relax... Focus, and realise that I am human, but I need to do the best I can.. Tenacity..
Insya Allah